The day I realized that you no longer want me in the way you used to was the day I knew that we therefore over forever. I knew that the love you had to give me had previously been running around and it hurts. It hurts because I want you and love you more than I ever have and now it has turned into horrible pain.
I remember feeling as though I was the person you cared most about in this world and now I feel like a bother, a small piece of what’s important to you. I know this is only the beginning of the sorenes and tears, and I know that I will only grow more hurt with time.
I wish you still adoration me like I love you because I crave nothing more than to be wrap in your arms and comforted in this moment.
I crave you forever and I have always. I guessed the moods were mutual. I don’t know why this happened, but I recollect feeling so lost as to where I stood with you.
As savagely honest as it sounds, I know now that you are able never enjoy me like that again. I see it in the way you text me only to get back the things you left in my apartment and the way you never ask me how I’m doing. My heart still hop-skip thumps when I see your name pop up on my phone. I haven’t gotten around to changing your funny contact name followed by hearts.
I wish things wouldn’t have ended like this or at all because I wouldn’t be hurting right now. I would be wrapped up in the enjoy I have for you, in “peoples lives” we had together, in the future we ever talked about.
Realizing you had fallen out of love with me is one of the worst experiences I’ve ever had. If I could take back anything, it would be letting you go without an explanation.