1. You don’t consider me a priority.
I expended a very long time asking myself why you never texted first, why you took so long to answer, whether you are went missing in action every few weeks. The answer was looking me directly in my face the entire hour. I merely didn’t want to admit it. I wanted to believe you gave a damn. I wanted to assume we were on the same page.
2. If you had any intention of dating me, you would have threw at least a endeavor into our conversations.
I should have taken your texting patterns as a warning sign — but it seemed childish to squeak about a text. I told myself there were more important things to worry about than whether you mailed a good morning message. Of course, I now realise, if you cannot be bothered to send a text, “youre supposed to” aren’t going to bother to scheme dates or buy me buds or remember my birthday. You probably aren’t going to throw any effort into either.
3. You never missed me.
I attained excuses for you. I told myself you were too shy to send the first text. I told myself you were swamped with work. I told myself you were damaged from a previous relationship. I shielded myself from the truth because it was hard to swallow:
4. Your attention doesn’t mean as much when I am begging for it.
I thought it was a big deal whenever you actually took the time to reply to my messages — but that is setting the bar low. I expected the minimum from you and you failed to reach my anticipations. If you liked me, if you wanted me too, then you would have made an effort to keep in contact with me. I wouldn’t have had to send double texts or snap an attractive selfie in order to get you to pay attention to me.
5. One-sided relationships are not worth the effort.
Chasing you was exhausting. It took me hour( and fortitude) to come up with cute messages to send you — and half the time, you would ignore me or let the conversation fade away. I threw constant endeavor into getting closer to you and you didn’t appreciate any of it.
6. Relationships are supposed to be equal, even in the beginning.
I never should have fallen into a pattern of texting you first every single time. I should have given you space. I should have thought more of myself. I should have realising that, if you cannot take the time to send a simple text, you do not deserve a space in my phone.
7. It injures to like you — and adoration shall not be required to be hurt.
Love shall not be required to be build me feel inadequate. Love should not leave me restless. Love should leave me breathless. It should construct me feel valued. You only brought me self-doubt. You stimulated me question myself. I am not supposed to be with someone like you, a person who has makes me sorrow. I am supposed to be with a person who has realizes me. Someone who misses me. Someone who does not think twice before sending the first text.